A lot has happened during the past few days, or rather months, since I last updated my blog.
I am currently occupied by COLLEGE – schoolwork, requirements, org duties, etc. I’m not sure whether I have mentioned this before, but I am currently a college freshman who is already in her second trimester and taking up BS Animation as her chosen course (•́⌄•́๑)૭✧ I joined 3 organizations namely Cinephilia (Film Org), AEGIS (Gaming Org), and Music Org (YESSS I GOT IN YAAAAY 😆). I’ve been pretty busy cramming my studies, drawing and finishing plates (no, not the plate you eat food with lol), improving my skills that are needed in my course, doing org duties such as doing a stop motion for my Cinephilia Org, and at the same time, balancing my social life along with my health and rest time.
That’s why I’m really sorry if I haven’t been posting much. ごめんなさい!~ m(_ _;)m Continue reading “Back From Hiatus”
I really didn’t expect that college would be this FUN 👍 It’s even more fun when the course you’re taking is what you really want or it is your passion 💛 💙 💜 💚 ❤ I met a lot of new humans who became my friends, crushes, professors and even, senpais (NOTICE ME SENPAI! 😄). It’s fun interacting with a variety of people who have different personalities or maybe common interests, etc. You can either learn new things from them or fangirl/fanboy with them lol however…
To be honest, every morning when I wake up and prepare to go to school, I still have this slight anxiety of what today will bring. Like every day was the first day of classes in college 😓😓😓😓😓😓 Like I had to find a way to fit in and not look like a sore loser or loner at the sides. I feel nauseous and kinda wanna throw up. But even so, it doesn’t stop me. Because a big part of me overcomes those anxieties and still wants to attend school and be with her blockmates and friends and learn more about her passion 💕 Things like being greeted by your blockmate with a “Good morning, Sunshine ☀ ” and replying with “Good morning, Starlight 🌠 ” are one of the things that keep me going. That makes me feel you’re free to be whoever you want to be.
So now, I’m not afraid of what tomorrow may bring. Instead, I’ll just face it with a big smile on my face 😁
“Hold on, whatever lies beyond this morning is a little later on. Regardless of warnings, the future doesn’t scare me at all. Nothing’s like before.”
– Simple and Clean by Utada HIkaru
Feelings have been poured out from the soul and into the world so bye bye! じゃあ、またね! ✨
UPDATE ON THE AUDITIONS ON MONDAY!
I might do the Get Up song by Superchick 😜✊ aaaannndd I’m still nervous for Monday AHAHAHAHAHA good thing, I already found someone in our class who’s gonna audition too 😅 WE SHOULD STICK TOGETHER COZ I DONT KNOW I MIGHT HAVE A NERVOUS BREAK DOWN OR SOMETHING HAHAHAHA JUST KIDDIN’ 😰😰😰🔫
Anyways, I don’t know if I’d be able to go on Monday ’cause I’m sick right now 😷 to all of you who are curious how I got sick (and to all those who aren’t) you’ll might want to look at my status at the moment:
//dreams about having a fever//
//gets sick in reality//
WHAT IS THIS SORCERY I DONT EVEN WANT IT 😭😭😭😭😭😭
but maybe I might recover fast since it’s still on Monday and today’s Saturday… oh well. Please pray for me guys HUHU
I’ll just do my best! 私にがんばろう！
So that’s all I have to say for now, bye bye! じゃあ、またね! 💕
Currently listening to Aoi Shiori cover by Amalee and Dima Lancaster 😁✌
So hey there, human.
As you can see from the title, I have another audition to attend to… and I have no idea where I got my spur-of-the-moment-courage 😂 I’m actually panicking and freaking out and don’t know what to do at the moment. Why did I even join the music org in our college? 😂😂😂 Well… Continue reading “Auditions… Yet Again.”
It’s really good to be back writing daily posts in my personal blog 😊 Sorry about the disappearance that I wasn’t able to tell you about my feelings when I graduated last March 21 (Yes, I knoooow… it’s the same day as the 1D Concert here where I live.) and being officially an “old girl” or alumna of my beloved alma mater. Oh, and did I mention, we had a batch song where I played as one of the violinists and it felt really surreal for me. Continue reading “Hey, I’m back!”
Just wanted to share one of my old poems that I had written in English class. It was the very first poem I created which was not super really crappy, even though it’s super random, so I’m fine with sharing it 😜 Plus, I don’t write poems that much… I’m more of a novelist than a poet 😉 It still doesn’t have a title until now so for now, that over there and up there will be its temporary title. Anyways, here’s how it goes… Continue reading “The Red String”
I’ve been feeling so nostalgic and sentimental nowadays.
I’m gonna miss everyone.
I think I’ll burst into tears during graduation.
But I also want to graduate already.
I just want to lie on my bed and sleep and watch drama and anime series, read my books, etc.
I have so much mixed feelings about this.
Only 12 days before our graduation 😭😁😭😁💭
Good morning! おはよう!
It’s late and lazy mornings (currently 11:26 am) with the awkward me (except that instead of waking up late, I woke up early today) 👓 I had to wake up early because we’re going to my lolo (grandfather) and lola’s (grandmother’s) home today. It’s been weeks since I last saw them.
Anyways, I just want to share my on-the-spur-of-the-moment-courage experience! I am still not over what happened last Friday and I don’t want to ever forget the feeling and experience 🙈
I, Samme Avan, had just auditioned last Friday to sing the responsorial psalm for our last 2 masses (before we graduate and leave our school). There were 2 rounds: in the first round, we would be singing the responsorial psalm for the second to the last mass, and in the second round, we would be singing the resposorial psalm for the last mass. To pass the auditions, we had to pass the two rounds. Though I wasn’t able to make it, I was still proud of myself and my accomplishment that I made it in the first round 🎤 Continue reading “Joining the Auditions (for the first time in forever)!”
Another daydreeeeammm! 😜
This morning, we had our annual speechfest in school, both in the English and Filipino department. There were 2 contestants for each section, one in English and one in Filipino, and we had 4 sections in our batch, so that makes a total of 8 participants. Our theme for this year is Looking Back in Thanksgiving, Looking Forward in Response to a Call. Listening to all of them deliver their speeches made my heart melt, and I couldn’t help but feel proud of them and of the transformation journey our school has granted them, and feel sentimental all over again. I almost cried there but I held back my tears because I don’t want anyone seeing me like that. However, I really felt all of their speeches and most especially, to the one who represented our section in the English department (She won the best speech in English 😁). Her speech was the one which I could most relate to, except for the dancing part (because she’s a ballerina, a graceful, beautiful and amazing one. She’s been my idol/role model since grade school 😄). Continue reading “What Goes On Inside My Head (Speechfest version)”
Today, we had our National Achievement Test (NAT) wherein it’s like an assessment of what you have learned. I think that’s what it was… or maybe not. Something like that. I’m not sure exactly how much time we spent taking the test but to make it short, it took us the whole day. I was even blessed to have been given some time to nap and dream about the usual weird dreams I have after answering a portion of the test. However, I am sad to say that I wasn’t able to imprint my dream a while ago in my mind so I can’t remember it.
Interesting fact about me: I am one of those people who have a talent of remembering their dreams. Not so much in detail but I remember the people who I interacted in my dream and what it was about or where I was in my dream. Also, sometimes I can use my special ability of finishing the stories of my dreams. Continue reading “What Goes On Inside My Head (NAT version)”